Wednesday, June 1, 2016
Before my heart attack, I was the Rock of my family. I was there when they needed me. I was strong and I took on every one's problems as if they were mine. I guess it was the mother in me that wanted to help make things right. I want to ease their burdens. If I can do it, I will do anything to make it easier for them and to always be there. Thank God, I'm still here today. Despite the traumatic experience me and my family went through during my heart attack, I now realize that no matter what is going on in your life, or the lives around you, that You are NOT the Rock - no matter how much you want to be!
The only Rock, that we can truly rely on, is God! Yes, we can take on the role to the best of our ability, but we must give our worries and our problems to God! Only He can help us if we are willing to listen. He can guide our paths, provide comfort and peace in trying times. He gives us our strength so that we can support others. Though there comes a time when even God knows you've had enough and can't take on any more. When that happens, He may set you back even further so that you have to slow down, take some time for yourself to recuperate and reflect on what's important to you and what you need to do so that you can get back to being yourself.....a better self, a stronger self, a healthier self. He is testing us all the time, we just need to listen and pass the test.
So, as I sit here today, exactly 4 weeks after my heart attack, I'm here to tell you 'Rocks' of the World, to slow down. Don't take on every one's problems, don't let the stress get you down, or you will crumble. You can only do so much. Don't sweat the small stuff, it's just stuff! Stress is like Cancer. Once it starts, it just continues to grow and manifests itself into your entire being that you can not beat it. Take my advice though and you might be one of the lucky ones as well that has beaten the Cancer!
I just suffered from what they call "Broken Heart Syndrome". Luckily, when caught, in most cases it is reversible, but it simulates a massive heart attack and weakens your heart muscle severely. I went into cardiac arrest, and went through the most traumatic experience of my life. The look on my husband's face when they said he had to leave the room, was enough to kill me. I remember yelling at God, as the nurse called for the paddles, "God, I'm not ready to die!"
Lucky for me, neither was He. He has a plan for me, and I'm pretty sure I know what it is, and I will continue to share with you and others as I continue on this journey with God so that I can be a Rock to as many people that are interested in receiving support in their journey to find their purpose in life. Though a few things I will do differently is take time for God, take time for myself, and not let the small stuff bother me. I can't take on everyone's burdens, but I can help lead them to God so that God can take on their burden and mine!
Have a blessed day!